On being fat

“You know, you’re pretty even if you’re fat.”

I don’t know how many times I’ve heard that line (and forms of it), but no matter how often I hear it, I’ll never understand it. Being pretty and being fat are not mutually exclusive concepts.

I remember someone telling me I must lose weight so I can find a husband. Frankly, if any man will only be attracted to me because of how much I weighed, I don’t think he’s worth the time. Plus, modesty aside, I’ve been asked out by people several times before. I guess my weight isn’t acting like the road block people think it would.

In college, I heard stories of people making fun of me because I seemed to be “overconfident” and “too feeling sexy”. I’ve always been aware that I am fat, and I never really felt like it was a bad thing, but that didn’t stop me from feeling bad about what was being said about me. I have to admit that it really got me down for a while. It’s sad that people felt I didn’t have the right to be confident with how I looked despite my imperfections. Sure, I wasn’t as pretty as they were and sure I would definitely not fit in their clothes but that did not mean I should let them get to me. Now that I’m older I wish I didn’t feel so affected by what was said about me then.

I don’t mind if people tell me I need to lose weight because they’re concerned for me and my health but when I hear reasons such as to find a husband or to look better well that’s just crazy. I’m rambling a lot right now, but I just need to get this out. I mean sure I’d like to lose weight and wear the clothes I want to, and maybe one day I will, but I don’t want to do it just because of what other people say or because I want a guy to like me.

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Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

I’m really bad at making reviews for my favorite things because my emotions get the best of me, so I’m not claiming that this is a review.  Rather I’d like to think that it’s a reaction to the first part of the epic finale of Harry Potter.

We had to drive all the way to Bahrain just to catch the movie on the first week. We weren’t able to reserve tickets since, well, it’s in another country. Luckily we arrived at the mall early so we were able to get really good seats (smack at the middle of the cinema yea.). I watched my the movie with my brother who until recently, had no interest in the magical world of Harry Potter.

I started crying uncontrollably when they showed Hermione in her room. That whole montage until the Order were at Harry’s door just got to me. I think the actors had grown so much. especially Emma Watson whose eyebrows were not overused in this movie (a good change).

I think the whole movie was a weepfest for me. The opening montage, Hedwig dying trying to save Harry (which I did not expect. It is a refreshing take on his whole death. I think it was better than how she died in the book), Ron getting splinched, Ron leaving (Rupert was AMAZING), Hermione getting tortured, and Dobby’s death in Harry’s arms.

I am more of a fan of the Harry Potter books than of the movies, since the movies tend to skip some parts or leave out parts that would be relevant in the next films. But I think this is more of a constraint than a conscious omission of scenes with future relevance. Not only is it difficult to perfectly translate the layers in the book onto the big screen, but it is also a challenge to please and entertain both fans of the series (both of the books and the movies) and casual viewers.

In addition to that, the movies were being made even before Rowling completed the series. Anyone who had read the series would know that the whole plot has been so intricately made that small details in past books have been highlighted in later books (seeing an old tiara where Harry hid the Half Blood Prince’s potions textbook which ends up being a Horcrux, Tom Riddle’s Diary playing a bigger role that we thought it would from CoS, and the significance of the locket found in Kreacher’s cupboard in OotP which played a greater role in the final book). Unfortunately, the writers (especially Kloves who’s getting most of the anger from fans)  did not know this while writing the script.

Although I would have liked to seen how the movies would have looked like if they were released after all seven books were published, I don’t think they would find a cast as perfect as the have right now, with the whole cast (with the understandable case of Dumbledore) had stayed with Harry Potter until the end. That itself is one of the greatest accomplishments of Harry Potter as a movie series.

And because of all I said, I don’t agree with all the purists who want every single word in the book to make an appearance in the films. Whenever I watch the films, I try to separate them from the books and see them as an entity in itself with my knowledge of the books merely as supplemental, in order for me to completely understand what was going on.

There were several missing scenes and dialogue that disappointed me a bit, some being the redemption of Dudley where he tells Harry he wasn’t a waste of space and the line “he knew you would come back” (which i was expecting while they were talking. It was one of the lines from the book that moved me). But this did not in any way curb the satisfaction I received by the end of the film.

In retrospect, this film has actually been the most accurate and faithful to the books, so you know that long and dragging camping scene casual movie goers are complaining about? Yeah that was in the book. Personally, I did not find it to be long and dragging, since well it was much longer in the books (where they actually talked about the cooking, hunting for food, overhearing Dean and the others on the run, Ron complaining about Hermione’s cooking, and a lot of talk). Also, the scenes of them camping were interrupted by the Doe, Godric’s Hollow, the Lovegood Residence, destroying a horcrux, etc. I actually thought they did a good mix of both action and camping scenes.

With all that, I just want to end this post with: OMG I LOVED THE MOVIE SFM YOU GUISE MUST ALL WATCH IT. I WAS AN EMOTIONAL MESS LEAVING THE CINEMA AFTER TWO AND A HALF HOURS.